My brother Zeb just came back from Korea on Thursday. He had served six years in the army. After spending a year in Iraq and a year in South Korea he was reluctantly dismissed and sent home when his contract ended.
When he returned home and we participated in twelve hours of drinking, billiards and darts. It was a good time. But I feel the pull of something. Something that often seems out of my control or willingness to be apart of the habits of society. I have felt depressed and unmotivated with my work. Often struggling with what to do next. I have been thinking about what it is that drives me and I think it has alot to do with having goals. Even though the art shows I have had in the past have been my own productions, they have driven me to go beyond what I thought was possible. I feel the need to communicate my ideas with the rest of the world even if it is on a small scale.
There is much do be said and much struggle ahead. The only thing that can slow me down is becoming to comfortable with my own life. I feel the need to challenge myself and have another show. My friend Rick and I have talked this evening about putting together a show of our work sometime in May. He does amazing paintings of trees and foliage which would compliment my landscape drawings very well. To me it is about absorbing the natural beauty in the world while mastering the techincal skills of observation in drawing.